She will be missed...

I am sure most of you know by now, but my mom passed away on January 28. It was by far the hardest thing I have ever done. On sat. the 24th I got a phone call in the middle of moving that my mom was in the hospital and they were doing CPR to keep her alive. We rushed down to St. George, and met my family at the hospital to be by her side. When we got to the ER it was the worst thing I have ever seen. She was on life support and in a constant seizure. I don't even know how to explain it other than it was horrible. They sent us up to the ICU where they were taking her after they did a surgery to put a balloon pump in her heart. She made it through the surgery, but was in a coma. They still did not know what had happened. She called 911 saying she was having a panic attack and coughing up blood. Once she got to the hospital she went into cardiac arrest, it took them so long to recover her, that her brain just went too long without oxygen, and so the tissue started to die.
She was on life support, and we all waited in the ICU waiting room day and night, hoping and praying for any good news. Unfortunately everytime the Dr. would come in, it was with more news that her condition was getting worse. Legally, it was my decision if and when to take her off life support. She had always told me that she NEVER wanted to be on life support, so I knew the decision, we waited until we felt we had mentally prepared as much as possible. On wednesday, we made the decision. It only was about 5 minutes after the life support was removed that she went. We were all by her side, it was a very emotional time, and the hardest thing to watch your mom die.
I'm sorry this post is super long, but wanted to give everyone the scoop as to why I'm not posting much, and not keeping in touch with anyone, I have been SO busy trying to get everything taken care of, and also grieving my precious mom. I love her so much, and keep wishing for just one more day with her.