Three years...

So I have to apologize right now that this is probably going to be long and sad. Three years ago today was one of the hardest days of mine and Jeramy's lives. Three years ago tomorrow was the hardest. We were expecting our first child, a boy. We were SO excited. I was six months pregnant. We were going to name him Jaedon Russel Pearson. I went in for a check up, to find out that he had died. We were devastated. They induced labor because he was too big to simply do a D&C. I layed awake all night in labor, knowing and preparing for what was coming. Finally, in the morning of January 18th, our little Jaedon was born. Stillborn. He was so tiny, we were able to hold him for awhile. It was the roughest experience I have ever gone through, but I wouldn't change it for anything. I learned to appreciate what I do have, and enjoy every minute for what it's worth, because you never know when it will be gone. I think that I now appreciate the son I do have, more than I ever could have without this experience. I know how precious he really is, and I know I can not take for granted having him. I look at Kaelor, and remember how easily they can be taken from you, and just have to love and enjoy him for every minute I have. I don't know how else to explain how much it really makes me enoy the simple things in life.